I have a tendency to worry over things that really don't need to be worried over.
Yesterday I read an article that it can take up to a year to start ovulating again after being on birth control. Especially if you've been on BC for an extended period of time.
I've been on BC for 12 years now, and by the time we're ready to have kids, it'll be 15. I have endometriosis, and the periods I had before BC were dreadful in every possible definition. My longest streak was a 3 month long period that left me almost anemic, exhausted and wondering how I could ever have a sex life in the future if things went on the way they did.
I quit smoking, changed my diet and exercise habits and have never felt better. This year, I had the first normal period of my life-a mere 6 days.
I know that my endometriosis is going to make it that much harder for Coach and I to conceive. And now the BC looks like it will too. Here's the quandry though: Do I wait until I'm 27, 28, and stop taking the BC in the hopes that I'll start ovulating a year later (when I'm ready)? Or do I wait until we are 100% ready and then just....wait?
All this, and having kids still freaks me out. The job I'm in right now is not even remotely conducive to having babies (no paid maternity leave, no maternity coverage on our health insurance, a boss that purposefully hires people without kids, etc), and I want more time with just Coach and I. I want to weather a few more storms (insurance against the havoc babies can wreck on a relationship!) and sock away some seriously good times (like taking our belated honeymoon!) before we start down the path of parenthood. But I wonder, in the back of my head, if us taking this time now is going to cause us fertility heartaches in the future.
I just hope I feel ready some day. I'm scared I won't. And I'm scared about ovulating now. Awesome.
And we're visiting the grandchild-ravenous in-laws this weekend!
Do you worry about things way off in the future? Or do you worry about ovulating? I know I do!