I'm not entirely happy with Coach right now.
The only things I ever hear from him are negative. While 95% of this is meant jokingly, when not balanced with something nice said once in a blue moon, it starts to weigh me down.
I guess I don't feel like he's attracted to me. His actions reflect that he is, but his words never do. I get that "words of affirmation" isn't his style, that it isn't natural to him, that it's difficult for him to verbalize how he feels. But WTF, would it KILL him to tell me that I look nice every now and then? Or say something genuinely nice instead of making "ironic" oinking noises when I eat another scoop of ice cream and think it's hysterical? (He says it's ironic because I'm so small. I sure as hell do not FEEL small when he does this).
Ugh. Sometimes I just want to throttle him! The stuff he says really is funny most of the time, but if I never ever hear anything remotely nice it all becomes drastically less funny. I'm going to have to have a talk with him when he gets back from his meet Sunday morning.
I try so hard to understand how he expresses his love for me. But sometimes, I just need to know that I'm desirable to him.
Anyone else out there want to shake their partner sometimes?